This is so true and you have to want it bad enough to get clean and sober! You have to have that unceasing yearning which is what I have!!!
To go through addiction..
Well folks this is the last post for the Blogging from A to Z April 2015 Challenge! And while some of my posts may have been late due to personal issues going on I COMPLETED the CHALLENGE!!!
So what has this challenge done for me? This challenge has given me the ZEST to stay in the WRITING ZONE! But it also has given me the ZEST to STAY in the ZONE to tell my story whether it be in a long post or a very short post. I can continue to have the ZEST to stay in the ZONE to continue to EDUCATE others about THRIVING not SURVIVING with HIV/AIDS and being in RECOVERY from ALCOHOLISM and ADDICTION to COCAINE!!
Does this mean that every post will be about recovery or living with HIV/AIDS/being clinically diagnosed as bipolar/depression? NO!! What it does mean is that I will continue to post about these things and now I will start posting about those things that seem to be RATTLING MY CAGE during this long election cycle coming up. The ignorance of others and what comes out of their mouths, just to name a couple of topics!
So until next time, that’s “What’s Rattling My Cage!!”
“I have a YEARNING to remain SOBER/CLEAN!!”
The Merriam-Webster Dictionary online provides the following definition for YEARNING:
noun yearn·ing \ˈyər-niŋ\
Definition of YEARNING
: a tender or urgent longing yearning for justice>
Examples of YEARNING
- yearning for something sweet>
First Known Use of YEARNING before 12th century
“I have a YEARNING to remain SOBER/CLEAN!!” I love that I can describe my YEARNING to remain SOBER/CLEAN with not only this word but with pretty much every one of the synonyms listed above!! I am truly blessed to where I am today and I will continue to yearn, crave, desire, remain thirsty pine, lust, have a passion, have the urge and yen to REMAIN SOBER and CLEAN from my alcoholism and addiction to cocaine!!!
Until next time, that’s “What’s Rattling My Cage!!”
The Merriam-Webster Dictionary gives the following full definition for XYLOPHONE: a percussion instrument consisting of a series of wooden bars graduated in length to produce the musical scale, supported on belts of straw or felt, and sounded by striking with two small wooden hammers.
When I started my blog “What’s Rattling My Cage!” in August 2014, I wanted this to be a blog where I would write about politics, relationships, issues in education, and anything else that I chose to write about. That being said this blog has turned into such a wonderful tool for me to help educate and help others who suffer or have loved ones that suffer from alcoholism/addictions to anything (mine so happens to be cocaine); being a proud homosexual in a still homophobic world and living with HIV/AIDS for 18 years.
This blog has also become a tool of my recovery from my alcoholism/addiction to cocaine. There is nothing greater than being able to be open and honest about who you are, where you have been and where you are going. In Chapter Five “How It Works” of the Big Book Alcoholics Anonymous it states, “our stories disclose what we were like, what happened and what we are like now!” How great is it that I have a forum to do just that!! TELL MY STORY!! I love it.
Why did I pick the XYLOPHONE post? Because I want to make as much noise as possible to congratulate myself at the end of the Blogging From A to Z April 2015 Challenge! Why, because I never would have thought that I would be able to submit a post for each of the alphabet and for the most part have them tie back to my recovery. I believe I have done just that and I am so proud because I have increased my numbers followers, I have increased my hits and I have increased my love of being a writer with my new love of blogging!! You see I may not have a contract and get paid to write – but guess what – I am published and it feels awesome!!!
Until next time, that’s “What’s Rattling My Cage!!”
This post is late and is for Monday April 27, 2015 and part of the Blogging from A to Z Challenge for April 2015!
As an individual in recovery from alcoholism and addiction to cocaine I often have to stop – breathe – and take a moment to say the following in its short form below I have posted the long form:
The Serenity Prayer
God Grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I can not change! The COURAGE to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.
The part of the prayer I quoted above is on the back of every Alcoholics Anonymous milestone chip whether it be the 24 Hour chip, 30 days, 60 days, 90 days, 6 months, 9 months, 1 year and multiples of years. I am very proud of mine and carry two with me at all times – my 24 Hour chip and my 1 year chip as reminders of where I was and where I am now with a little over 1 year and 2 months being SOBER and CLEAN!! They are also a constant reminder of “TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE!!!!! The three tenets of any program that are most important are “UNITY, SERVICE and RECOVERY!”
The last few weeks have been such a constant reminder for these words to be kept close to my heart and in my mind. I have written regarding my mother-in-law being in the hospital since 4/12/15 and that there have been multiple occasions where I have been reminded that I am not part of the family and have no say in whatever happens with her aftercare.
But, here’s what, today I have the “WISDOM” to know the difference between what I can and cannot change. I also have the “WILLINGNESS” to accept those things and not let them, as one of my sponsors says, “EAT MY LUNCH!” The greatest thing is that I have the “WISDOM, WILLINGNESS and COURAGE” to change those things that I can when it does come to communication with my husband’s siblings and their spouses. I love them all – I just do not respect them all because of the way they have all treated Cruz’s mother for almost nine years since their father died. The Fifth Commandment states “Thou shalt honor thy mother and thy father!” In my opinion at least six of his seven other siblings have definitely not followed this commandment.
I do not understand how all of a suddenly these individuals decide to act like they care! You cannot just all of a sudden become a termite or cockroach and come out of the woodwork as though you love your mother so much and you are so worried about her well being! THAT’S NOT HOW IT WORKS!!!!
Until next time, that’s “What’s Rattling My Cage!”
Recently with my mother-in-law still in the hospital; my being unemployed again; watching my poor husband deal with his emotions internally over his mother’s illness; both of us suffering from extreme exhaustion; and this being the first major tough life incident since the start of my recovery from alcoholism/addiction to cocaine and I am dealing with it SOBER and CLEAN, my emotions continue to vary and depending on the emotion they can be very minimal or very extreme.
Another short one, so until next time, that’s “What’s Rattling My Cage!”